Jong-hyun, Kim

Jana Taoube

No one told you
About the flies and lies
The fairytales and masks
The glamour and allure
 
No one told you
Makeup gets crusty
Diamonds only rusty
Nakedness old
And thoughts bold
 
No one told you
They die with bare tables
And unfed babies
Rent unpaid
Nappies unfolded
 
No one told you
It happens one hundred years ago
Two hundred forward
Tears unmasked
Tasked
 
No one told you
The Glocks were already loaded
Making my eyes water, turned, golden
Dance Baby Dance
Smile and hide the broken
Don’t hold back, show the coping
 
No one told you
You would not get it back
The time that runs
Heaven tripped over
 
My words hold meaning
I don’t warn
Merely tell
…
No one will tell you
Because suffering is hidden
 …
The reckoning day will come
& heaven will hope
The clouds will envelope
Words will be swallowed
& hell will throw up its rope
 
There is no one to tell
No soul in the world
There will only be running
Hiding as well
 
So, heed my words
once again
my scripture
stands
 
Take a glance behind their glassy eyes
SHINee must continue
Folded lids
one more one less
Puffed up pouts
 
Cry for their souls
Locked out before prison
Feel for their entrapment
Fear for your reenactment
 
I hear them knocking
4/4-time signature
heels on time, breath loaded
I see stained mirrors
Of gore
Only absence
& seemingly bliss
 
No one ever told me
Where the people in my mind are from
They told me to be happy
Knit and speak only to be incarcerated
And so I asked them if they heard the knocking

The children crying
The mind trying
The poor man dying
Falsifying they claimed to be clarifying
 
I hear the knocking getting louder.
 
They’re here.
 
They’ll have my hands-on plastic
My mind wrapped up in metal
They’ll have my bosom down against tar
My heart enraged
Swallowing, caged.

He wrote a letter he would never see again
Filled hearts and drained them just as quickly-
Don’t call, I’m in a wasteland.
No one told me 
But you, dear Sammy
thanks.  

-jt

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